turning

As I register to Digital Photography School weekly newsletter, today I received this week's edition. Through one click to another click, I was surfing some professional photographer's site, admiring their works, and being even more curious of how they can produce such beautiful photos. And that happened to be poisonous. 

In my old blog in Multiply (www.mutiaralsidharta.multiply.com), I highlighted my passion of being a women scientist in my current field. However, now it weakened. Shoo, I should have known myself who is easily bored. Being a scientist means firm goal, tons of hard work, eternal patient, wrapped with never-wilted enthusiasm. I'm not sure I have stock of energy to keep myself on track until I can reach the goal. Somehow I don't find the idea interesting any more. My visual brain always associated something with colour or light; I see grey or dim light. 

Maybe it's just a temporary feeling. Or on the other hand, a chance to choose other way? I have large interest in photography and it keeps growing. Not once thoughts of switching my path come across my mind. I remember a story of Bara Patirajawane who decided to become chef instead of building his career in diplomatic world like his father, because of his love and passion on cooking. The guts. That is the most important thing I don't have enough right now. 

Shourai ni dou naru ka na~ I still have to do my experiment and write my thesis for next month. Perhaps I would better finish those first.